it's really a mixed feeling to read words you used to write.
back then you really made me sound like a bastard.
maybe i'm one still, to you.
and to realise you're still the one who can bring tears my eyes so easily.
just only with words you wrote before.

"i said i'd compose a song for you.
well here it is ; enjoy.
when i get the tune right i'll play it for you ok?
so far only the verses are done.


this song goes out to someone.
someone who has been special to me since day one.
but i guess.
life is just a stupid fairy tale.
never gonna be happily ever after.

not now.
not ever.
just so you know.
you'll always be special to me.
since then till there.

even now that you're gone
and it hurts the most.
i'm still here for you.



700nm


i wish you could
find out the truth about this day
i wish you could
have a little more to say
give me the chance to set things right
give me the chance
to fix this fight

chorus:
if only you would understand
if only you would see that we can
if only we could back it up
hit on rewind, fill our hearts
sort this out, clear the doubts
why cant you see? or
maybe it was never meant to be

i wish you could
put this aside
i wish you could
think of more than that pride
give me the chance
to say i'm sorry
give me the chance
to change this story

bridge:
and write it again
to start anew
open the cover
keep it forever
start it over again
(scratch the stains)"

i do remember.
that day when i told you life is nothing but a stupid fairy tale.
our happy ending never came.
i hate you please.
for leaving.
now i'm stuck here figuring which way to go, to let go entirely.

gonna go meet nique and vonn at singpost now.
we can all be emo together.
=/


i thought you've gone away.
i was ecstatic.
now images of you came flooding back.
i miss you.
need you so terribly.
how could i be so torn-up inside and yet so happy for you?
i'm twisted and warped.


like you used to say.
fuck this.


- evan